Sometimes, I’m Just Not Feeling It

I started this blog because I was so motivated by the research I was doing on veganism that I had to have an outlet to share it.  The science behind a plant-based diet was blowing me away.  The food was unexpectedly delicious.  I was excited about the changes I was seeing and feeling in my body, and I needed to get all my ideas out of my head and onto some place where I could keep track of them all.  (Is that why the rest of you blog?)

Yeh, right now, I'm definitely taking the escalator.

However, has anyone heard of the Law of Undulation?  I first read that phrase in the book The Screwtape Letters by CS Lewis.  Basically, the law of undulation is the concept that everything waxes and wanes, ebbs and flows.  First, we’re excited and then we’re not.  We’re happy, and then we drift away and we’re not happy.  It’s a natural rhythm, like the tides or breathing–in and out. The funny thing about it is that while we’re “in,” we can’t imagine every being out.  And, when we’re “out,” we can’t imagine that we’ll ever be “in” again.

Well, a few months ago, I was deeply “in” to being vegan.  Now, I’m less “in.”  I’m nottotally  out.  Oh, no.  I’m not eating meat or dairy.  I have not abandoned this lifestyle–I’m just not as enthusiastic about it.  I’m not as enthusiastic about exercising either.  Or cooking.  Or blogging about eating, exercising or cooking.  I’m just in that part of the cycle.  I’m “out” right now.

I’m going to give myself a pass though.  Who knows, I might see something from the outside that I haven’t seen from the inside.  I’m still going to exercise and eat vegan.  I’m just not going to beat myself up if my jogs are slow and my food is unimaginative.  I’ll get back to it, and when I do, I won’t be able to imagine ever feeling like I do now.


4 responses to this post.

  1. How true. We always think we have to crazy happy and content and sometimes we just aren’t. Can’t have an inside with out an outside. Can’t have light with out dark. One of the downsides of our modern culture is we have lost the flow that happens everywhere around us. Seasons, moon phases, day giving way to night and vice versa.
    Thanks for the reminder today.


    • I’m glad to hear I’m not the only one that thinks regaining the “flow” is important. But, you’re right, we have to have the valleys to appreciate the mountains.


  2. There is nothing wrong with feeling that way. There is a natural rhythm to these things and sometimes we will be “in” and others we will be “out”. Just relax and stay the course. Listen to the rhythms of your mind, heart and body. It is amazing what you will learn about yourself. The most amazing thing that I have found is that I enjoy things more.


    • I’m not beating myself up about it, but I am planning to snap out of it. I don’t like it when I lack enthusiasm. I’m giving some real thought to how to get back on track.


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